Welcome!

Hello! Welcome to my first REAL blog post!

So, after making my website, I realize I have not really done much with it. I am hoping to make that change now.

There are many artistic endeavours I had planned on undertaking during 2025, however I never really got around to doing it. I was always sidetracked due to work, or life, or pure anhedonia. Generally speaking, I have felt rather apathetic. It's a struggle to get over that. Despite what my personality seems like with this website design and how I act on social media, in reality I can have a grim demeanor much of the time.

In 2026, I have a few goals now. I have several hobbies I wish to pursue, some things for work. But by the end of this year, I hope to be able to resolve my art and musical endeavours around a theme, at least. This may take a lot of effort, but I hope it happens. Also I am falling out of love with my current handle, "Epsi". I plan to keep it for now, but I don't know if I want to.

Additionally, one of the things I wish to do is to disconnect from social media and things like youtube watching. I read once that consumption can be a drug that drains creativity. I feel like this is true. And so, I hope to be "online" less. It's a tough thing to accomplish, it's so easy to get sucked into useless scrolling. However, it is something that must be done.

Furthermore, I wish to engage more with communities that are not existing on the corporate social media sites, and also microblogging in general like fediverse. I think microblogging does have many problems, the constant stream can feel very draining.

In this age of AI, I think it is important to be a real creator, whether it is in writing, art or music, or making games. Anything non-toxic works.

So in 2026, I aim to try.

And as a great saying goes:

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